Hi @Iona-RO it's soo nice to hear from you and that you have been through a similar experience. It made me tear up a little to imagine your support team cheering you on from the beach, that's so lovely. I would love to hear more of your thoughts and strategies for ADHD although I am a bit worried I am getting too attached to the idea of this diagnosis, in case the psychiatrist tells me I don't have ADHD after all. But it would just help explain so much. Luckily I don't have to wait too long to see him, my appointment is in a couple of weeks - I have heard of people having to wait months and months.
Since you have asked me what I'm struggling with, here is my really long list, I hope something in here makes sense to you and that you (or someone else) might have some ideas about it. I really struggle with a constant feeling that I am forgetting something, that there's something else I should be doing, that I'm not on top of things. When I try to rest and relax, I don't really feel relaxed, so I end up needing so much time to myself, because I'm trying to get enough rest to feel ready to return to my responsibilities, but it never feels like enough. And when anything encroaches on that alone time, I feel really upset at the change in routine. I can't keep up with my friends anymore because that's just another task on my list that I can't handle. It feels like the only thing I can do is go to work, because adding anything else on top is just too much. I use anxiety to stay hyper-alert at work so I can keep track of everything I need to do, but it's very exhausting and painful living that way. I feel like my brain lives in a totally different place to my body but I work in an active role with children so I have to put immense effort into being present so I can help and look after them. I'm so tired all the time. I don't really know how much longer I can cope. And I am so disappointed about that because I was recently pushing myself to cook a lot, stay on top of cleaning, etc but I just couldn't maintain it 😞
