Hey @willkanga29 👋
Welcome to the community and thank you for sharing what's going on for you at the moment, we're always here for you to vent!
It sounds like you've got a lot you're dealing with at the moment and for the last 5 years. So well done for reaching out for some support, it's not the easiest thing to do sometimes. You've mentioned that you're taking meds for depression/social anxiety but don't feel like they are helping much - have you been able to let your GP/psychiatrist know about that?
It's really great to hear you were able to reflect on your past experiences with LSD and made the decision to stop to keep yourself mentally well. With smoking weed regularly, is that something you would like to change for your wellbeing too? If so, SMART Recovery has some great info and support about making healthy decisions that you might like to have a look at.
It must be tough being at home with everything you've described, I imagine it's pretty difficult to properly relax. Have you been able to chat to your family about how you've been feeling and what support you would like from them? You've mentioned your mum has a short temper - does she ever become violent?
I can totally understand you feeling like you just want to curl up in bed. And it's great that you can relax a bit by watching YouTube - is there anything else you like to do to make yourself feel a bit better? We have this video where other young people talk about ways they like to look after themselves that might give you some suggestions to try out too 😊
