@Courtney-RO it is definitely overwhelming and it helps so much to be able to chat on RO like this. The new psych even added a diagnosis of Social Anxiety to the mix, so it's starting to feel like there are just so many things wrong with me, how can I be such a wreck..? Of course I know these are all disorders that go hand in hand and luckily the solutions, too, go hand in hand, so I shouldn't be worried about being 'too complicated' and 'incurable,' but I struggle so much to keep those fears in check. At the moment I just feel like a shadow of myself, and of course no one wants to feel that way, so I grasp toward the solutions, but as you said, there's no quick, easy, one-size-fits-all solution, so it's frustrating. For example I spend a lot of time ruminating on volunteering, working, or finding SOME kind of activity out of the house, because I know that connection and contribution is so important. But I don't feel ready for any of that right now. It sounds too overwhelming. And yet maybe I should force myself? I'm afraid I'm turning myself agoraphobic and ruining my own mental health because I spend all my time at home. Lately I have a lot of health anxiety and I worry a lot that my mental health will spiral out of control, or I will get a medication side effect, and end up suffering in the hospital.
Thanks for listening to me and supporting me. I do try my hardest to ride the waves. On the hardest days sometimes I just have to cry it out.
As for manga I'm really a beginner myself!! Honestly the one my friend sent me is a typical romance, which is normally not my thing but somehow I got invested 😆 I think there are too many manga out there to choose from, so I just rely on my friends to tell me what to read.
