Ah, I see. That certainly is rather stressful and I can sympathise with feeling as if you've missed your chance.
I think that Courtney's advice of taking some time to indulge in self-care might be useful to you. Sometimes it's just better to focus on taking care of yourself and enjoying your own company just to leave what's bothering you behind for a bit ❤️
In relation to him being distant, I think asking him if there's a reason for that might be able to give you guys a chance to discuss and get back to the friendship you had before this unravelled.
Hope you're feeling better today x
