Hi @redroses
We're really sorry to hear that you have lost someone close to you. It sounds like they were really important to you and you enjoyed talking to them. It is so special to form such a lovely connection with someone who you can have fun with and enjoy their company. It is so understandable that you're feeling upset about losing this person and also the things that they have accused you of. It must be really hard to hear those things after all this time, especially as they were your friend. It can be hard to see red flags, so please be kind to yourself. We have an article on toxic friendships which you might find helpful to read.
It seems like you're feeling quite isolated at the moment, is that right? It is great that you have joined our community and have become apart of a group online, even if you're not getting the response that you hoped for. We really hope that you make some wonderful connections here! If you ever need someone to chat to, we have a service called Peer Chat. Our peer workers have experience with mental health challenges and use this experience to support others. I have also sent you through an email if you don't mind having a read of that 
