Hi @Red_Flamingo ,
We're sorry to hear tonight is difficult. It sounds tough to have those thoughts constantly ruminating.
We'd like to acknowledge your strength in reaching out. It seems like you have been proactive in managing your wellbeing in reaching out to a number of services.
You deserve all the support you can get. As much as your mind may be telling you otherwise, by you being so proactive, you DO deserve to live life - just like everyone else.
Although the dark clouds linger over at this moment, they won't stay there forever.
