Hi @redroses , how are you doing today? It sounds like yesterday was a tough day, and I can completely understand why you might be feeling a bit confused and hurt after receiving this kind of message. From what you've said about being shown screenshots of legal stuff, it sounds as though this friend was making you feel uneasy about whether they were going to report you for harrassment or stalking, is that right?
I'm sorry that your friendship with this person ended up this way and that they are being so blunt towards you. It's definitely not fair for her to make an assessment of whether or not your psychiatrist has the full picture of what's going on, because that is between you and your psychiatrist, not anyone else. I think it makes perfect sense that you wanted to try and hold onto a friendship based on the good times you've had together, like the roleplaying and inside jokes you enjoyed. Relationships are complicated, and there's usually a lot of good mixed in with the bad, but it sounds as though her behavior towards you has become quite hurtful. How are you feeling about your friendship with them now? It sounds as though you've decided to delete your social media accounts that connected you to her and to fall out of contact, which can be a very hard call to make.
You also mentioned in your post that you've discussed the idea of having suicidal thoughts with your friend online, and that she wasn't always respectful and understanding of what that's like. Are you having any thoughts of suicide at the moment, and do you feel confident that you can keep yourself safe? I hope you know that this is a safe space to talk about suicidal thoughts and that you deserve to be listened to and feel heard 💓
