Not stupid at all @redroses I roleplay in my head all the time and play D&D for similar reasons. Escapism is not a bad thing when it helps us to cope. I still reckon you'll be able to find someone out there one day who will be able to join you in roleplaying your favourite shows.
It's not all your fault - there are always two people in any relationship, and from the sounds of it she's been behaving pretty poorly towards you, even if you have also made some mistakes along the way.
Hmm that's rough about KHL, being on hold is no fun at all. I believe Headspace have a chat available if you sign up, you can check it out here.
