Hi, im new here and I don't know how this works but I just need a place everything on the table. Im very young and started the first year of uni last year. I would say it was good, I had a lot of lows but I got through it however, in reality, I had a lot of friends but only one 1 friend I ever felt comfortable sharing personal things with and one that was a surface friend and I considered them by best friends. the surface friend turned out to be just that a surface friend who continually did things that just weren't right and I decided to cut them off. My close friend and I stayed very connected during the holidays. Despite it being a non same-sex relationship (I am female he is male) we had a very healthy and close relationship. We would call for hours and talk about deep things and laugh, he got to know me really well and I helped him through his breakup. Even when we were both overseas we talked heaps and would exchange things like I miss you and compliments like a normal friendship. After getting back to uni it is like everything has changed. We have always had a banter-filled relationship but it feels like that's all there is. I've recently re-entered a depressive hole and I wanted to lean on him for support. At the start of the week the bantering got to me so much I told him how much he hurt my feelings and I assumed everything would go back to normal. but since then I also tried to talk to him about how im going mentally and im struggling to get through each day and its like he simply didn't care .. the conversation just evaporated and although I expressed im really struggling, I cant eat, I cant be motivated all I do is cry all day and I constantly feel horrible he has made no effort to check up on me and in the time I need him most will leave my messages on delivered for hours on end although he is active (in things like groupchats etc.). So given he was my emotional anchor im all alone and I simply cannot cope. I don't know how to force myself to eat, how to keep up with uni and most importantly how do I get through my day. I need help with anything please any advice on the friendship or how to get through this low. How do people do this without support
P.s I am going to see a psychiatrist but my appointment isn't for 2 weeks and I am just really struggling
