Alright, well it's been a while since I've said anything about this.
I've mostly gotten over the fear of showing my face to others now, and it feels great. I feel like I fit in a bit more now so that's nice. That week was a rough week, and I think about it every so often and just get hit with this wave of emotions. Just talking about it now after finally getting over it hurts. But yeah, overall I've mostly gotten over it now. I'm still really sensitive to people saying anything about how I look, but at least I can look my classmates in the eye without panicking 🙂
Also about camp, that was basically my turning point. I had decided that it would be way too weird if I decided to wear my mask doing all of the activities they had. I assumed that if I didn't, I'd probably be pressured to anyways. So I ended up taking it off. Those first few hours sucked, I've got to admit. Everytime someone even glanced at me it felt like everyone was glaring daggers into me. It was terrifying, but as time went on, and people spoke about it less, I eased myself into it. And that lead me to were I am now. About a month after reaching out, I'm basically mask-free now, and I've told my parents to just stop talking about it because it's still a very hard topic to discuss. I want to thank everyone here for there help and the info and messages you left me to help me pull through. Thanks guys!
