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It really sounds like you are juggling so much right now and feeling quite stressed in multiple facets of your life. Navigating friendships can be a tough and it sounds like you haven’t felt valued by these people for a while. You deserve to have friends in your life that bring you joy and who you look forward to spending time with. We have a range of content on our website including articles and quizzes on the topic of friendships and I wonder if checking these out may help you evaluate these relationships and whether you want to continue investing in them. On the other hand, I do understand why you are struggling with this decision as finishing year 12 is a massive achievement worth celebrating! @Indigo_blue has offered you some great food for thought to help you weigh up your options. I would like to add that if you choose not to go, I encourage you to celebrate this milestone in your own way as it is an accomplishment worth being proud of. Congratulations! 🥳
You mention in your post that you have been experiencing social anxiety and panic. I am curious if you have ever spoken to anyone or received any support for this? I have included some links with information and self-help strategies you may like to check out. You also may like to try this quiz to see what help is available that best suits your needs. I want to commend you for having the courage to reach out for support today and I hope you are able to make some connections in this community with other young people facing similar challenges.