Hi @Green_Forest,
Thank you for reaching out. It sounds really difficult having to deal with depression, but I'm glad you have friends that tried to cheer you up :)). Having had a depressive episode myself at one point in time, I can understand how you feel that no-one truly understands. I can also understand how exhausting and helpless it can feel.
I just want to ask, have you tried seeing a psychologist or had any type of psychotherapy? I know that cognitive behavioral therapy is an effective treatment for depression that is well-supported by evidence, and it can help you address thoughts and behavior that maintain/contribute to the depression. Anti-depressants can help with the depression but they don't address thoughts. I'm just wondering if psychotherapy may be worth trying for you; it might make a difference for your depression :))
Hope this makes sense :)),
Greenfern
