‘ACID WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?’
I haven’t been on here much so I could focus on exams for the next few weeks but I want to get this off my chest so I can make the best decision.
So tomorrow I have an exam for the subject I’ve struggled the most. I’ve been studying and doing practise exams all week but on Friday I didn’t get an opportunity to study because I had to do some errands for my family, as well as going out to dinner later that day. I manage to study ok yesterday but by the end I was like ‘ok I was planning on taking the day before the exam (today) off BUT I want to make up for the missed day on Friday.’ I wake up today feeling REALLY on edge because I HATE changing plans but I just kept telling myself ‘I can do this it’s ok’ to settle as I got my study things ready.
I sit down, start the timer for the practice exam and…can barely concentrate.Even though I did THOROUGH revision yesterday I can’t seem to properly write or recall stuff. I try taking a few minutes to breathe but for some weird reason I CAN’T calm down no matter what I do.
I try to focus on my breathing. Nothing. I try to break down the question. Nothing. I try to exercise briefly. Nothing. I try to challenge my thoughts. NOTHING!!
So my dad sees me, tells me to take a break, I spend half an hour eating yoghurt and get stuck on whether I should resume the practise exam or not. I guess the smart thing to do is to get back to it but I’m worried it might trick my brain into not completing an exam in one sitting. But on the other hand I’m really worried that if I don’t finish it I will jinx myself into NOT completing the exam tomorrow.
I’m really conscious of my actions today, as you can tell but I keep reading ‘today’s actions are tomorrow’s results.’ But my parents keep insisting I should stop for the day since I already did heaps of study this week, my actions won’t affect tomorrow and keep throwing so self care strategies at me that I don’t know what to do.
So yeah. I’m pathetic. What should I do?
