Hey @Carrot_Mammoth
You really are juggling a lot it can be incredibly challenging to be an international student and it must be hard enough to support yourself while also trying to keep it together for the stress of the relationship.
I hear you say that you are struggling with the difference between the way you present yourself versus how you are coping inside.
If you were to have more open conversations with her about the stress of it all, how do you think she would respond? Do you have some friends, whether that be other international students or university counsellor who you can share these experiences with? Sometimes just hearing other people's relatable experiences can really help, especially since once they know you are looking for a job can often point you towards new opportunities since they are aware of the struggles!
