Hi @Anonymous ,
Welcome to the ReachOut Online Community! I am sorry to hear you have been going through such a difficult time, I hope you are able to find support and connection here with your peers.
I can hear from your post that you are really struggling right now with thoughts of suicide. This is a really difficult place to be in so I would like to commend you on having the strength to reach out and open up about what you’re feeling. These are not challenges you should have to face alone. I wonder if you have any current supports helping you through this such as a therapist, doctor or supportive family member?
I am also curious whether you have a current safety plan? If not you may be interested in this post on our forums which outlines how to make a safety plan. It sounds like playing Mario Cart is a useful distraction for you, I wonder if there are other things you do to stay safe when you are feeling depressed?
You also mention disordered eating behaviours which I imagine is a very stressful experience. On our website we have a range of articles about disordered eating including this one on support services you may like to check out. Just letting you know I will be sending through an email soon so please keep an eye out for that 😊
