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So me and my partner R have been together for 6 months now and at first it was amazing, we would talk for hours and hours about how much we wanted to hold each other and kiss and cuddle and spend time with each other, then when we met we only ever held hands once or twice and it was just a peck on the cheek or lips from me and once them. We still flirted and joked and sometimes were affectionate towards each other but then they started going offline a lot and not messaging me for 3 or so days and would just say they were busy playing a video game which kinda hurt but I brushed it off. About a month ago is when it really changed, they stopped flirting, stopped trying to be affectionate and just kinda joked with me and treated me like I was just a casual normal friend and it hurt a lot. I brought up the not messaging a lot thing and they handled that really well and said they'd try to message me more regularly and it got better, but there was still the issue with no affection. Now we both have the same ex, R was in a relationship with this ex for 3 years and in that span of time the ex didnt show any affection towards R at all so I could understand why they might not have shown any to me. Anyway, I brought it up with R yesterday the fact that they didnt show affection and tried in the most gentle way possible to ask if maybe they could show more affection as it hurt when they just tried to brush my attempts off at holding their hand or hugging them with a jovial shake of the hand or making a joke. I reminded them that I loved them so much and that was why I was asking, because I wanted to be able to spend time holding them. They responded with a brief message saying they were sorry and that joking around was just their love language and they were sorry I didnt like it and they'd try to be better. The thing is they joke with everyone so thats the reason behind me feeling like a normal friend and I was a little hurt so I messaged back asking what changed because at the beginning of the relationship they'd been so keen for physical affection and now it was different. They replied saying that they "didnt know what they wanted or what they were" and now it wasnt really their thing. I now feel upset and I feel toxic for wanting affection and I dont know what to do so if someone could give me some advice it would really help