Hey there @Carnation_Caterpillar
Thanks for sharing your feelings to the forum. Gender and sexuality is always a complicated topic for everyone, as we are all trying to find our personal identity and place within society.
Being confused and freaking out in this situation is understandable, as it is a sudden event that happened to you. Maybe a reason why your felt at odds with yourself could be the conflicting confrontation of musculinity and femininity? As you had said that your friends are very focused on the concept of being an "alpha", and that recently after wearing a dress that you felt right?
But remember the decision of whether to explore this aspect of yourself is within your hands, and there is no need to rush.
If you have any more concerns and problems about this situation you want to talk about, do remember we will give you our support here.
