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So recently I posted about my partner and I and it was getting better... then it didnt. They started going offline more again and it was really getting hurtful and then they said they weren't even probably ready for a relationship.... so we broke up. Thats it. 7 months of a relationship gone. All the plans we made? gone. All the times we talked about getting married? gone. I just feel empty. We're still friends but we were basically friends anyway. I dont know how i'm going to meet anyone because as a transmasc/enby i HAVE to date someone gay but I dont know anyone and my mum is incredibly homophobic. On top of that we live in a very remote area so I have no idea how I'm going to meet anyone else. Pride is coming up and I'm meeting one of my online friends there who is going to introduce me to his gay friends but I dont know how to make the excuse as to why im going down. Its really hard and I still love them but in some ways I dont. I crave affection and i've only ever recieved it once. It feels like shit.