Being awake at one in the morning is getting quite normal. Last night, I was crying silently, and it hurts. And that's getting normal too.
I can have a great day and still end up crying just cause of my depression. Not much really triggers it though, cause it's always in the back of my mind.
And I'm tired. Tired from going to bed so late. Tired of being so lonely. Tired of crying most nights. Tired of not being able to tell anyone.
Anyway, I'm safe. I'm having a zoom meeting with someone I know this evening cause they're away at the moment. But she's not really someone I talk to about any of this.
And I wish someone would ask how I am cause I gave up on telling them, cause I just feel like such a burden.
And if I need to, I'll have a chat with Headspace.
