Hey @OneDayITellMyself
From what you have shared, you feel like your efforts have not been recognised and that makes you very sad, is that right? I am sorry that you have to experience that and I want you to know that I am very impressed with your discipline and determination. You should first be proud of yourself, and I mean, celebrate your own goals!
And now for the other part, I want to let you know that you are not alone and I think it is more common than you might expect but because you don't hear it often, it might appear to be rare. I can relate to your experience and I want you to know that you are not doing anything wrong. Because there is no right answer! Throughout high school, no one asked me out once, and now that I am in uni, that still hasn't changed.
Every time I go out, even when I am by myself, my mind is so occupied with experiencing the moment and enjoying what is right in front of me that I never notice anyone approach me. And I don't mind it. The fact that no one approached me means I am content with my own company and I am having fun, so what else matters? I have never had a boyfriend before but I have had crushes, so maybe if you have a crush on a guy you can try to approach him first. I usually find that if I talk to a guy, I have a better feeling about whether we are more suitable as friends or lovers.
Lastly, I want to highlight that you are NOT doing anything wrong and I see the efforts that you are putting into yourself and your future.
Hope you are enjoying your long weekend, and if you want to share more, I am here for you too! 😁❤
