So recently i have been dealing with a lot of stress and anxiety, which in turn i think has lead to a bit of depression. This is the hard part for me, it has lead to me having suicidal thoughts, nothing set in stone, and i would never actually end my life, but, my brain pulls up all of these graphic images of, me if i ever did it, it has terrified me, and even just writing this is making my scared. I am ok now and have gotten much better, still anxious to go to school, and overthink a lot of things, but I never felt like i could talk to anyone about this. I couldn't even admit it to myself. I am much happier now and satisfied but, i am terrified of what might happen if things become bad again, i will definitely talk to someone if it ever happens again, but I just felt that I have to admit it here, because this is the only place I feel safe saying it. Once again I am much better now and happy.
