Hey @angriest_star
That sounds really hard for you, I'm sorry to hear that youre feeling this way. There are days where I feel like I experience the same, and it can be hard to cope with. It's often days where I feel emotionally exhausted and I feel apathetic for not giving genuine or positive reactions to people, rather just stare blankly, as you put it. This post has actually been extremely validating for me, so thank you for sharing 🙂
This definitely does not mean that you're not a good person. You've acknowledged that you're going through a rough time and your emotions are feeling numb. You've acknowledged that you wish you could give genuine reactions to others, but are struggling to do so. You seem to care about others and value friendship. Sometimes we just need a little help to get there. Have you reached out to anyone else? Such as a counsellor, KHL, perhaps friends or others that you interact with to let them know whats going on?
