Hey @mt08_, I'm so sorry that you're experiencing such heavy betrayal from your friends and L. It's so not okay that L recorded you during sex and that he was showing this around school, it's a horrible violation of your consent and trust. Like @snazzy_pigeon said, what happened is not your fault.
When it feels like no-one cares it can be really tempting to draw further into yourself, but you absolutely deserve to have people who care and will take this seriously! You have shown so much strength by making this post as it can be really vulnerable to talk about something like this in a new community. Please know that on this forum we do care and we can see how serious this sort of thing is 💚.
Talking to your parents/therapist/school would be a really good idea so that you can get that help and care irl. I understand why you're questioning what's the point of talking to an adult about this, since you doubt something could happen to L. But it's so important you can get support with how this is impacting you, and also what he's done is quite serious so I would think that there are consequences he could face. I really really hope the adults in your life take this as serious as it is.
If you'd like to, we would all love to hear how you go with your next steps 💗.
