For context: I'm 22F my dad for months and months has been telling me to get back into looking for jobs for graphic design (i studied at TAFE for it and graduated a few years ago) (i also had a full time job in graphic design for 6 months but let me go because they thought i was underqualified)
I worked in a cafe casually since that full time graphic design job and get decent amount from it as well and enjoy it. He's only been pestering me about it because i know he wants the best for me - to move up and not be stuck in a dead-end job and to also make enough and in the future show that I can get a loan for a house. I was stuck because i didn't know if i wanted to keep going with graphic designing the whole time I've been at the cafe (been there for almost 1 year). But it's so annoying because in the past, when i've said that im not doing something with work or that's productive during the weekdays, he would ask why im not working etc.
So fast forward to now they hired 2 full time-ers which means i only get 1-2 shifts per week. And I've decided to now look for a full time graphic design job because it's not enough. I had an interview that wasn't successful with my application (but really loved my work) and now going back into searching every day its getting a little difficult to find more and more roles. My dad has said for a while to just 'go and out network or find freelance work' i do that sometimes but then beat myself up if i dont do it for a couple days or a week.
I really don't know what to do in the mean time and I feel like an absolute slob when i don't have much planned for the day and everyday i just deal with the guilt of not being productive or anything meaningful, and then the cost of living rising makes me think of my future...what do i even do?
