Hello @Thistle_Jellyfish ,
I wanted to start by recognising how brave and courageous it was for you to post on ReachOut. I know it can be difficulty opening up about your feelings to people within your life, and strangers on the internet, but you have taken such a huge first step.
I am so glad to hear that you have found a safe home to reside in. Your safety is of utmost importance. I am sorry to hear about your grandfather. I can imagine this must be a difficult time for you. I am wondering if you are receiving any support for this?
In terms of your friend turning on you, it seems like this was done in a time where you needed a friend the most. I too, have had this happen to me, and it just adds to an already painful situation. What I have come to realise now, is that if a 'friend' can turn their back on you throughout a difficult time, even at all, they are not the type of friend you want in your life.
I have also done distance education. I am wondering if there are any activities around you that you could do to meet new people? For example, I go to a walking/brunch club which is where I have met most of my friends.
It sounds like you are truely doing your best, and that is enough! Please ReachOut if you need someone to talk to.
