Hi Bailey thanks for the reply , i struggle with communication and speaking about something that bothering me coz if i talk about something i always end up crying and i hate feeling vulnerable , so i just avoid talking to anyone about my problem , my upbringing didnt involve much of feelings expression . No i dont talk to any specialist,am scared, i feel like am failing in every aspect of life , in uni am not doing very well , my family back home,(am an international student) have very high expectations of me , am scared to fail my mum coz she is my rock all my life , my dad was there but not there at the same time , am the last born of 4 siblings all boys, 2 of them passed away , only the first born and me are left , my brother is way older than me , we hardly relate but we hv a good relatiinship, we hv a 19 old gap,,,idk what to do , i just made a huge change in my life and i was realky proud , i moved to own place and i thought i would be peaceful here but i feel like its more depeessing than peaceful
