About my grief i worked through that myself , i believe am strong and i have to be for myself coz no one will , i have moments when i think about it its really hard, yes i have reached out to uni counselors but as i said i hate vulnerability i cant be completely honest with them, i feel weak , crying makes me weak, so that why i resulted to this coz even when am crying no one is there giving me the "poor her" look that why i feel i can open up here idk if it makes sense , yes my mum is very important to me i hv watched her go through everything growing up and she always turned for me when no one could, we used to hv parents meeting in highschool and she made sure she didnt miss any meeting, my dad never turned up even for the most important day of highschool, never even asked how i was doing ,so i will always support my mum in all means i can , and now she is getting old so i have to get my shit together to support her she is 64, My dream is to give her the best life she never had, so thats why am working on my mental health because if you are not thinking straight you cant do anything right.
