I really feel what you have written. Feeling like you're not struggling enough. I feel like that all the time.
"Maybe if a "truly bad" thing happened then I'd "deserve" to be cared for". I really feel this as well.
Yes, some of it has to do with social connection as well. There are so many ways I feel like this and want something bad to happen from what you've said and also about connection.
I'm here, I guess. I honestly don't know what I feel like right now. I'm not happy or sad to the point of sobbing. I have the footy tonight, so it will be fun to go to. I hope Carlton wins.
I'm safe. I have a few things to do today before the football and KHL tomorrow.
Thank you for your very thoughtful post. I really resonate with what you have said. I feel like you've really understood what I am going through so thank you.
