Dear @Charcoal_Goose it's nice to meet a fellow goose!
First of all, thank you so much for being able to share this personal part of your life, I appreciate it very much. I myself have never been in a relationship and have similarly felt the emotions you have described. Something that I have noticed about myself is that I usually feel uncomfortable opening up to people, especially if I don't feel completely safe and respected. Is that potentially why you may be feeling this way? Have you considered that? [These are self-reflection questions, you do not have to answer these if you do not feel comfortable].
Another thing I have noticed is that I am an extremely shy person when it comes to communicating with people face-to-face, in the case of a romantic encounter, just the idea of it makes me wonder how I would act or "need" to behave in that kind of a situation. Sometimes one's preconceived idea of a certain situation may freak them out or make them feel pressured to act a certain way, could that be the reason why you may be feeling uncomfortable or on edge? It's common to feel that way, especially if you care for someone and would like to make a good first impression.
I just want to let you know that your feelings are very valid and portray a very universal experience, so please don't feel like there is something wrong with you because I'm in the same boat!
Thank you, and I wish you all the best in embracing yourself and understanding that your feelings are 100% valid.
