Hi @Matcha_Toad ,
Ugh, this sounds rough, i'm so sorry you're feeling like this at the moment. I think it's completely understandable that you're having lots of different feelings right now! It sounds like a couple different big changes in your life have all kicked into motion at the same time, which is always really overwhelming. It really makes sense to me that you would be missing your partner lots since coming back home, I can imagine that finally meeting in person after being long-distance for so long would really extend the closeness you have. I can imagine it would really hard to then go back to long-distance again, knowing just how lovely it is for you to be with them in person. I really feel for you. I think it's great that you're already planning your next trip to see your partner, and I think it could be super helpful for you both to plan in advance when you're next able to travel to see eachother. From what i've heard from friends and family in LDR's the distance often feels more manageable when you at least know the next time you'll be able to see your partner.
I'd like to say big congrats also on recently finishing up uni!! This is major! I'm in a similar situation at the moment in that I'm in my last semester of my undergrad now. You must be so proud of all your hard work. I totally get what you're saying in that I am also beginning to feel increasingly uncertain and anxious about what comes next. For me, I'm planning on going straight into post-grad study after I finish undergrad, but even though i'll still be at uni, transitioning out of undergrad and into post-grad still feels like it'll be a massive deal! I think that finishing your degree can really signal a big transition, especially if you're thinking about heading into the workforce full-time. I also think that this transitory period is a really beautiful opportunity for you to re-focus and re-conceptualise your goals and desires for your future. What are you most drawn to? Which types of jobs excite you most? If extra study is something you're also really interested in, perhap you might be able to make it work alongside a new casual job in the roles you're looking at.
I'm sending lots of care your way 💚
