Hi guys, hope your day has been good.
I don’t know if i’m studying correctly or not. I’m currently in my second year, and i feel like i spend so much time and effort in uni that i barely have time for other things: socialising, personal time, activities outside uni. I have friends who are in uni but still have time to go out and enjoy life, or are working, paying their own bills, and studying full time at the same time.
Even though my results are good, i get HDs, i don’t feel satisfied at all because i dedicated so much time studying, getting good results is the least i have to achieve. I don’t know if i’m studying too hard but not ‘smart’ enough, or maybe i’m just kinda stupid.
I aim to get more things done in this semester than studying. I want to build my portfolio and learn more skills outside uni and look into getting a job, but i really don’t have time. I wonder if that is just an excuse for my lacking, because others can do it, but i can’t.
Sometimes my family would check in and ask if I have done other things yet, but i haven’t, and i’m scared they would think i’m too lazy that i would just not do other things, even though it’s just that i don’t have enough time. That is why i feel like there is something wrong with me, that i can’t do as much as other people my age can do.
I’m scared that if this goes on i’ll never be able to finish anything and just end up being a burden.
