Hello @Sherbert_Swan,
I am sorry to hear you are going through a tough time. Navigating all things relationships can be really difficult, and it is normal to feel how you are feeling. I felt the same way when my relationship with a previous partner ended - I felt like even 18 months later I would still be sad about it sometimes. I found it useful to remind myself that there is no 'correct' time to move on, and the most important thing is to take care of yourself and listen to your feelings. To help listen to your feelings, I have found it can be helpful to put time aside to really understand what you are feeling and work through it. For me, that included seeing a therapist and journalling, and spending time going on long walks in nature to think through things. Have you found any strategies like that helpful so far?
While it can be difficult and disheartening to navigate the dating scene, it is good to hear that you are not changing who you are for other people. Even if it may not feel like it right now, there are a lot of people who do not use drugs and would be interested in the same things you are, they just may not be travelling in your current circles. As suggested by others, it may be worth joining groups focused on your interests or trying to meet people in new ways.
Take care of yourself, sending healing vibes ❤️
