Hey @Cinnamon_Llama
It sounds like you've been having a really tough time lately. I'm sure its quite difficult to deal with the sadness you've been experiencing and to have this extra worry on top.
I understand that it can be really hard to express your feelings so first of all, you should be really proud of yourself for being able to reach out to kids helpline as well as post on ReachOut. Thats a massive step into helping yourself deal with these feelings. As some other posters have mentioned, writing a letter to your dad sounds like a good option. It gives you an opportunity to figure out how you want to tell him and express that in a way that's comfortable for you. Though of course, if you think having the person from kids helpline talk to your dad is the best option for you then do that.
It's also understandable that you're unsure about the person from kids helpline talking to your dad when they don't know your real name. Even though its daunting, if you decide to have them talk to your dad it might be a good idea to talk to them about why you covered up your name. keep in mind that they talk to many people on the helpline who probably hide their name as well so they wouldn't be offended or have a negative reaction. In saying that, its still a pretty daunting task. Another option is you could say to your dad that you want them to talk to someone about a couple thing but you told them a different name. That way your dad would have a better understanding of why they would call you a different name.
Good luck with telling your family and don't hesitate to make another post if you need! This is a tough situation to be in but you're handling it really well 😊
