Hi! So to put this simple, I told my friend that I liked him, I did it in August but he hasn't replied because he's barely on his phone and has a lot of school to do since he joined late.
I ended up deleting that message and sending him a different one about how I like him and my feelings about that, I'm nervous because what if we end up not being friends because of this? Or he treats me differently? Like barely texting, keeping distance, ECT.
We met online and we haven't met up, he's knows what I look and sound like yet I have no idea what he looks and sounds like, I told him "if you feel the same, I'd be happy but I'd deny you, I want to see you first and meet up with you", I'm not that stupid to jump into a relationship where I haven't seen them before.
Tomorrow is my birthday, I'll be 17, he said he'll make an animation for me, that it takes a lot of effort and he wants to spend that on me, but since we haven't been talking I've been wondering if he will send me it, he forgets a lot of things(I call him Dory from finding Nemo/Dory because he forgets to much), im scared he forgot about it.
One time a few months ago in July I think, we played those discord games, we played crazy 8's, golf, chess, almost all of them. I wanted to make a bet when we were gonna play checkers, he agreed, he said he didn't have anything he wanted me to do if he won so I told him that I just want him to buy me lunch, I stupidly said "The real want might make you uncomfortable", he wanted to know, I told him I wanted a kiss if I won, he agreed. We played for a bit, he was doing great!(FYI, I've never played checkers) I said that he must really not want that kiss, he said that he did want it, but he also wanted to win(we are both very competitive in games, him more). We ended up at a slight draw, both not wanting to lose, he told me to beat him after a while, I was confused and asked why, he told me that it would be a win win situation because we get to kiss, I was shocked and asked if he was joking, he said he wasn't, I told him that I only kissed 1 person before and that it was when i was really young, it wouldn't be funny to joke about that. He reassured me that he wasn't joking and that he really did want to kiss me, I was even more shocked.
I won checkers.
Wow, it went from me talking about sending an I like you message to a full rant about him, he's an amazing person.
Thank you for reading if you have, I know it's long.
