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My grandfather is about to die. He lives 17 hours away from me which makes it hard to get to him unless I’m flying. I don’t do well with death at all. My dad is flying up to be with him before he goes which means he might miss my graduation, which is only making this whole thing worse. I should be happy because I’m literally about to graduate high school but I just feel empty and confused. My dad wants me to fly up for the funeral but I don’t think I can handle that. I hate funerals. I don’t like other people crying which makes a funeral a bad place to be. I’m just really lost and I don’t know what to do.