Hi @koobdoob
Welcome to our forums and thank you for sharing this very difficult experience with us. I’m so very sorry to hear about your grandfather, it sounds like you’re going through some really heavy feelings right now which is absolutely understandable when dealing with death and loss. I can hear you’re feeling empty and confused while trying to juggle your feelings about graduation, your grandfather dying and potentially attending the funeral. Sometimes, when we have something that we think should make us happy, like graduation, and at the same time need to hold space for something that makes us feel sadness and grief, it can make us feel overwhelmed, scared and confused. Funerals can bring up lots of feelings, sometimes even closure, and it’s understandable if it feels like it’s too much.
I wonder if you’ve been able to look after yourself and talk to someone you trust about how you’re feeling while you’re going through this difficult time? If you are considering attending the funeral, it might be helpful to know that you have someone who is able to support you while you’re there.
Reiterating what @LittlePisces already mentioned, I encourage you to keep connected with the community, you don’t have to go through this alone. If you’d like, you can also connect with a peer worker for some 1:1 support with PeerChat. I’ve also included some links for further support here Headspace, and KidsHelpline
There will be an email from us coming your way so keep an eye out for it. Be gentle with yourself and I hope to hear from you again soon.
