Hey @keroppi
Sounds like you’re going through a lot. Feeling alone is so difficult. It’s understandable to be struggling with it. Especially considering that this has been going on for a while.
Going through bullying must have been really difficult. It can definitely impact the relationships you form later on in life. I’m sorry your mum and family made you feel abandoned. It becomes really hard to believe that people care about you when they don’t demonstrate it through their actions. It’s not fair for your mum to take her anger out on you. You don’t deserve it.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with being sensitive. Some of the best people are. Honestly, it’s a really endearing quality. It shows that you care deeply. As you’ve said, you have a kind heart. That’s what really counts. You are good enough and you will find people that value you. It just may take a bit more time. You are not a burden. Especially not within this community. We are all more than happy to listen to you.
It’s really important to have people that you can talk to. It doesn’t sound like your friends and family are doing a sufficient job. Would you be interested in talking to a therapist or a counsellor again? There’s also always places like kids’ helpline where you can get some one-on-one support. They can help you find ways to manage your understandably overwhelming emotions.
