Hi @keroppi
I just wanted to say that it's crazy how heavily I resonate with this. Having people around you but feeling disconnected and unsupported by them is hard, especially when your close family is involved who you'd wish would be there for that unconditional support. I've also had some moments recently where I might bring something up with my mum, and just get shot down or hit with the classic guilt treatment, and it does hit you with that existential dread bc you kinda wish you had that closer connection with your family. But yeah just know that you're definitely not alone in this, and the fact that you're willing to reach out here and articulate your points so well shows that you have the resolve and willingness to move through this period, I believe in you 🙏
I'd also heavily recommend using the forums here regularly as well. It's tremendously helped me in feeling supported and loved, which helps to combat those thoughts of having no one to talk to which I get can be so crippling.
Just make sure to keep searching for those connections. I get how it can get demoralizing having so many unsuccessful attempts at connecting with those around you, but I promise you there are people who will love you for you, all the struggles included. Keep reaching out on here and to people you haven't tried talking to yet. You just don't know who might surprise you.
Keep being awesome, I wish you all the best 🙏
