Hey @TankRadical
Firstly, I want to point out that it is absolutely okay to be imperfect or have some red flags. I think a lot of how we work is by comparing ourselves to others are worrying about what they might think of us. Thats completely natural, but it also means that sometimes we can compare every part of ourselves and set high expectations which could be difficult to achieve. It's great that you can recognise that you try hard to better yourself and improve you wellbeing, but be cautious of when this can take a turn into worrying about how you need to improve constantly. You do not have to always be improving. It is absolutely okay for you to be yourself.
Secondly, I have also felt pretty similar to you, especially when its receiving support from friends and family. Personally, my family isn't very vocal with their support but rather it shows through their actions. We can never know exactly what other people are thinking or their perception of us so its hard on us to make judgements based on this. We don't know if they see how hard we're working and look up to us or not. It's taken me so long to come to that realisation and stop thinking about what others think but I feel that it's helped me and my mental health in the long run.
Thirdly, you are only 22 years old. You are allowed to make mistakes and not have done everything that you want to do yet. Go at life at your own pace and accomplish things when they feel like the right time for you. You are allowed to have flaws and not be perfect at everything!
Hope this helps 💕
