Hey @I_Tried
It sounds like you are going through a difficult time, thank you for sharing your experiences.
I have recently been feeling similar feelings about a break up I had earlier in the year. When you are used to having a person to lean on and rely on, it can be pretty lonely and upsetting to be by yourself. But, what I have learnt is that it is a really good chance to take some time and reflect and understand your own needs better. Like you said- often we change ourselves to be different people when we are in relationships. Now you have the chance to work out what YOU want and need in life, which puts you in a much better place for any future relationships.
Also, don't be scared to lean on your friends for a bit of extra support in this time while you are working things out. I am sure they also love your jokes, and I have found I am much less sad and lonely when I am with my friends.
I hope that is helpful, you've got this!
