Hello @Vizion101
Sorry to hear that you that you having such a rough time in terms of feeling that you have nobody to truly connect and relate with, although you have friends that are really caring through the worst version of yourself.
Personally, I have also gone through this rough patch of life my life as well during that time. I just came to a new foreign country ( Australia) back from my home country and while I managed to make friends, the first year was really rough for me, and same as you, it was not that there were not there or cared for me but it just felt like if I lose them I have no one left.
So there is this constant state of fear of making any sort of mistakes and any sort of oddities must be kept out.
However, as time flied, I made some more friends and have gotten comfortable with the people I have initially made. Although hangout now are more mundane with most of my friends, I have gotten quite content with it, and I think It’s also a factor of being more comfortable being alone now, which is something I have learned throughout my friendships here.
In any case, I guess these sort of things come with time and changes as you learn more about yourself and friendship dynamics in general.
In any case, I hope this sheds a bit of light on your circumstances or were of some help and I wish you well ☺️ and do feel free to drop on here again if you need more support.
