Hey everyone,   The last movie I watched was Machine gun preacher', which is based on real life and about the civil war in east Africa. Extremely educational, influential, confronting and moving. Would reccomend. My favourite cousines are Mediterranean and Italian, Favourite hot drink is hot choclate (vegan), and cold is orange juice. Favourite bubble tea is mango, with mango popping pearls. Favourite sent is white sage, and the smell of rain.   ... View more

Hey everyone. The latest book I read was 'Call me by your name' by Andre Aciman; I loved it with my whole heart. I don't think I really want to read the next one, as the first one encapsulated a world that I'm not sure can be recaptured. I have heard the second one is a little disappointing and kind of shatters the reverie of the first one. I am desperately looking for a stand alone book, preferably similar to 'Call me by your name', something that explores moments and times in life. I am not really looking for action and dystopia and intensity right now, something a little peaceful or emotional, realism, just a glance into someones life. Any suggestions? ... View more

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@mspaceK Hey, my Xbox days went on a bit of a hiatus for a while, but just recently i have been playing a little bit, mainly i have been playing Ultratron, an old school style space shooter game, but I can not get past this boss level so its frustrating me and i don't end up playing it for long. I use to play pub g a lot, but I got sick of the attitudes of a lot of players when you play squad, especially towards women on the platform, as a female, sometimes it is not a pleasant experience to say the least. But I have been playing it a tiny bit recently in solo. Use to play Forza horizon 2 and 6, which I was addicted to at one point, would recommend. I have been looking for games that are visually beautiful, and like peaceful, maybe open world, something like that. What do you play? Any suggestions ? ... View more

@hoops  'If there is hope, it lay in the proles'. The power of the people, is an incredible force. Know that the people of this world, especially the youth will not go down without a fight. There is hope. But we need action. Personally I have tried to minimise my carbon footprint by becoming vegan, as choosing a plant based diet reduces your carbon footprint by 73%, that is ALOT. It is a simple but largely effective action that can reduce your impact on the environment, and really support the cause of climate change. Maybe get involved in politics at what ever level you feel comfortable with, for instance I like to write articles and send them to the newspaper, or even email the prime minister. You could get involved in a climate activist group, and if there isn't one available to you where you are, you can start one. This is your future. Don;t feel as though one person doesn't make a difference, because they do. People are the only thing that make a difference. I know it is a daunting fate we are looking at, but there is hope, we just have to act on it. Have faith in the people of this world, in the youth, we won't let it go easy. ... View more

Hi to everyone and anyone reading this. It has been a little over a year ago since I started this thread, and I just wanted to say some things. When I first posted this thread, I was completely lost. Months before posting it, and months after posting it, I was lost. I was a mess of things that I couldn't recognise as a lot of anxiety, obsessional thinking, depression, loneliness and some deep-rooted low-level trauma. Honestly, posting this thread, and replying to posts on it was harder than I thought it would be at first; because it was difficult trying to help someone understand how to get through something, when you didn't understand yourself. It was difficult to say 'things will get better' because objectively I knew it was probably true, however at first, I couldn't even see myself getting better. I was sure for the longest time, that my life was somehow over, that I would always have intense brain fog, that my heart would always be palpitating and beating irregularly, always on the brink of an anxiety attack, that I would always be so thoroughly disturbed by my thoughts and what I thought to be true about myself because of them. I thought I was dropping off into a void of 'insanity', and there was nothing I could do about it but watch my slow descent into madness. I felt guilty for my family, for having to deal with me. I felt bad for making them upset, simply because I was upset, and they didn't understand what was wrong with me. There were times when I couldn't see a future for myself; a lot of days when I didn't want one. Truthfully, few things kept me holding on. This website and this community being one of them, and I am thankful for that. I want to say, that things do get better, eventually. And I know this to be true, because I have been dragged through hell by my mental health, and here I am, happy to be alive, finally. I'll admit it’s a bit of a strange feeling after so long of dealing with depression and anxiety and this deep lack of self-worth, but it’s a welcome one. After so many years of emotional and mental turmoil, the on and off with my mental health issues, and the thought in my mind that never truly left throughout it all ' I will not make it through this, I can’t, there's no way'. Well there is, and yes, I can. I have. I still face feelings of anxiety and depression, and my mind still pulls me into thought spirals surrounding obsessions every so often, but they are more than manageable. The thing is, I don't want to die anymore. When I'm feeling anxious, I don't think I'm going 'insane' or losing my morality. I'm not afraid of my mind, and I understand myself better. I’m not denying the possibility of relapse, because I think it is important to acknowledge that recovery is not a clear and easy path; often one of the hardest parts of mental health, is recovery ; figuring out how to be okay, figuring out how to want to be okay. I used to think 'things will get better' was just a phrase thrown at me from people who didn't know what else to say, didn't understand what was wrong with me and didn't know how to help. But I understand now that it's not. It does get better eventually, and not even just okay, but good .I don't want to disregard the fact that mental health is not something that you just 'get over'. It takes time to feel even remotely okay, to even want to feel okay. And I understand that for a lot of people, mental health will always be a large factor in their lives. Mental health isn't simply a 'phase' nor is it something that hinders the overall quality or 'worth' of your life. It is simply a factor in your life, and through my individual experience it was extremely troubling and disturbing. So, my heart is always with those struggling with mental health. People dealing with mental health have a lot of fight in them, and a lot of resilience; and I think that is something a lot of people don't recognise, including those struggling. Even for those who deal with depression, and low moods, and a lack of energy; there is so much strength in pulling through. For some of us, continuing to breathe is a feat on its own. So I am proud. If you are struggling, or have struggled, then I am so proud of you for making it this far. Mental health is hard, exhausting, confusing, frustrating, frightening and just so incredibly difficult sometimes. So please keep fighting. Try to take care of, and be kind to yourself. Have hope, and know that things do get better, maybe you're tired of hearing it, but it’s true; trust me, I know.   'If you're going through hell, keep going'   You are beautiful. You are strong and resilient. You are not worthless, You are wonderful. You matter.   Lifeline : 13 11 14   https://headspace.org.au/eheadspace/     ... View more

@Hozzles That sounds tiring, i hope you're doing okay. Maybe you can try to divert away from media for a bit to give yourself a break ? Or just try to force yourself through the discomfort and not reread something, I know its hard, but forcing myself to be uncomfortable with my thoughts or not doing compulsions is what helped me get through them eventually. ... View more

Hi, @Confused_fox , hope you are doing well. Sexuality can be pretty confusing sometimes. But all that matters is that you feel comfortable with yourself, and if not I hope you can work towards it. It is absolutely fine to be confused, being human is inherently confusing it seems. In the mean time, i recommend those sites that @Tiny_leaf has suggested. The RO community is always open =) ... View more

@Tiny_leaf  I think nature and animals have a way of reaching us on a deeper level, and i think that connection holds some type of healing.  ... View more

I won't - Richard Walters ... View more

@Tiny_leaf  Sorry it took me so long to reply! I have been MIA in major works and stuff.  I love to do 'earthing' as a grounding technique. Its walking barefoot on the earth and absorbing its energies in a way. Tonight has been the first time in a while that i have felt a continuous feeling of dissociation, its kind of making me anxious which in effect is making my DP/DR worse. Fun, hahaha. Anyway, i have my candles lit and im listening to lana del ray in my room, and trying to chill tf out. Overall im doing okay, i hope everyone else is doing okay =) ... View more

@Tiny_leaf yeah i really hate it. I looove nature, and now i struggle to feel immersed in it and really appreciate its beauty. I struggle to feel present.  Anyway, lately things have been somewhat better overall, but just recently DP has been acting up but i think its because of stress. ... View more

@queenP  Hey, sorry to hear your OCD is giving you a hard time. Personally i have never experienced relationship OCD, but i can imagine it must be disheartening.  Perhaps just try to remind yourself that OCD is just thoughts. Its just your brain messing with you.  Hope you are coping okay, you will get through this.    ... View more

@Hozzles Hey, im sorry to her about your pet's passing, i know how much they can mean to you. OCD is hard, like super hard, so i hope you are coping okay.  Brain fog is also so horrible and frustrating, I know my personal experience with it has been less than pleasant to say the least. I hope your doing okay now, if not we are always here for support.  p.s totally 100% agree, brains are weird af ... View more

Too much - Tora     ... View more

@queenP i hate this, especially feeling disconnected from my family. Its very disheartening and in some sense, scary.  Does anyone ever get brain fog ? i do. it sucks ... View more

dp/dr also effects my ability to connect with nature, which i hate. ... View more

I hope everyone can feel comfortable posting on here, and if you dont have an account i encourage you to make one. RO is a really supportive place. ... View more

@ecla34 I think ending everything in romance kind of sets a standard too, like to have a happy ending you need to fall in love. I wish it was more focused on falling in love with yourself.  ... View more

I wish we had more powerful women portrayed in tv and film WITHOUT falling in love. Like love is great and all, but i wish they allowed women to be more independent and for their character development to not be centred around falling in love, often with men.  And if they are going to fall in love, it would be great to see more diverse sexuality portrayed. ... View more

Is anyone here actually interested in the film industry or animation or something? Any aspiring actors or directors ?  ... View more

If you could make your own TV show/movie what would it be about   Mine would probably be about lots of things. Like growing up, and mental health, but it would also be humorous. I think the main character would be awkward and kind of antisocial, just something people can relate to i think. ... View more

Just remembered how much i love the hobbit.  i love old traditional depictions of magic and European landscapes. They feel so whimsical ... View more

Which tv show/movie land would you like to live in   Thats hard but probably Narnia or Harry Potter ... View more

@Hozzles I recommend watching every marvel movie ever made. And i LOVE the hunger games. of course i love the books way more, and am genuinely disturbed by lack of details in the adaption, but i still love the movies too.  ... View more

@Puppies026  3 hours may seem long but it goes fast. Its totally worth it. ... View more

Anyone seen Gran Torino with Clint Eastwood ???   ... View more

@Puppies026  On the blind side is such a beautiful movie.   I love spirit. The movie about the horse. It will always be one of my favourite movies. ... View more

tbh on my block always cheers me up, dont know why, but it makes me feel comfortable. ... View more

DEADPOOL just gonna throw that out there    ... View more