It's weird how I'm feeling emotionally, for months now I've felt nothing, empty. Not really feeling any emotions then my nan passed away not long ago and I was fine until the funeral date, I felt angry, not at myself but others. Then back to nothing and the most emotional I've felt since was watching a video in my YouTube recommend about how Kurt/nirvana changed the music scene transitioning to grunge. I cried evething is confusing but it feels like nothing is wrong because I don't feel anything like a neutral state. ... View more

Hey @Maddy-RO,   I don't think I really have a problem with socialising or talking to people, I think I have more of a problem opening up and letting people know what's going on. I have no supports and no one to talk to about this I think, I've tried to use the helpline but it just doesn't work for me, kinda had for me to think that they genuinely care, they are stuck there for hours listing to people's problems that are probably far worse than mine and feel kinda bad for wasting their time.   ... View more

I'm safe and will always be, I don't think I could inflict pain on myself or anyone else. I finished yr12 last year and now I'm stuck at I job I don't want to work, no one messages me to see what I'm doing, I'm always the instigator in that sense. Whenever I ask "friends" they are always busy with work or something/someone else. ... View more

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@Tiny_leaf yeah, I've got two dogs and cats, fish and a bird. What about you? ... View more

@Tiny_leaf yeah I could be doing better aha. Fish are always good, as pets and food 😂. ... View more

Hey @Tiny_leaf, been a while huh. How are you doing? ... View more

Well it's been a while since I've put anything on here. I thought I was doing good, not needing support from others or relying on the forum, but here I am. I've just recently been experiencing some of what I used to, feeling drained, tired, random emotional out bursts. I'm fairly sure I know what has triggered this but would have to be more subconsciously than on purpose, if that makes sense. I really just want someone to be there for me atm, because it truly does feel like I'm all alone. ... View more

@MisoBear I generally just listen to music or watch YouTube. ... View more

Hey @MisoBear, I really don't know if I can talk to anyone else, I don't really know what I can or would do. ... View more

Hey @Jess1-RO that's exactly how I feel. Haven't confirmed if I'm seeing them this weekend, hopefully it works out. I'm looking forward to it, I just want to talk to someone about everything face to face, I think it will be reliving to get everything out. ... View more

I feel like I can't do anything on my own, I feel like I can't even be alone. I'm never the centre of attention or try to get attention but I feel almost selfish for wanting to be around others needing attention. I just really don't feel like my self or normal when im alone, yet I'm can be so awkward in social situations. I really hope I can talk to my friend this weekend. ... View more

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@Bre-RO  I'm feeling like I'm just back to where I was the first time all of this started happening. I'm just feeling really lonely again, like no-one is there for me. Lost, idk sad definitely, and now I hardly see anyone because I've finished school. And I guess everything I feared prior is now becoming reality. I know alone time is good but I think I've had too much, I really wish someone were here right now. ... View more

I don't even want a relationship with someone, I just want someone to talk to and be there for me. I think I'm starting to fall back to where I once was, I think I'm starting to loose all progress I've made. ... View more

@Bre-RO I really don't know, that's not really an issue anymore. ... View more

I think it's fine to talk about what "happened", it was at the party that I was taking about around two weeks ago. It's about this girl who I met there, she was "all over me". We were both under the influence of alcohol but she was clearly more effected by it. We talked and she asked more than once if we could go talk somewhere else, away from everyone else. I froze once again, I couldn't move and I can't even remember what I was thinking at the time. I guess I didn't want things to go any further that night because I felt like I would have been taking advantage of her and I didn't want to ruin the friendship that was created that night. But I've managed to ruin it all by myself throughout these two weeks. I got asked more than once by my friends if anything happened that night, or why I didn't and like I said I felt like I would have been taking advantage. Now I've been thinking what if something did happen that night, how different would everything have panned out. Would things be better than what they are now. ... View more

@Tiny_leaf I really don't know, it goes from one to sort of an extreme. That's what I'm also sorta thinking about if I were to choose the other option. How would everything be now. I don't know if should discuss the topic here or not as I know some of the people who use the forums are young and I'm not sure if it breaks any of the rules and guidelines for the forum. ... View more

@Tiny_leaf I think what you said is right, I think I'm begging to doubt my desicion. ... View more

@Tiny_leaf I really don't know, I know what I did was the right decision, I think. Everyone will say it's the right decision too. But no-one has said anything about it, not even the person involved. I don't know why I'm even still thinking about it, it happened about two weeks ago. ... View more

This is a weird feeling I have, for some reason I want recognition for something I did. I just want to hear someone say that I've done the right thing but posting this makes me sound selfish almost idk it's weird. I know if I say what I did everyone will say I've done the right thing but it's almost like it's been forced out. It's confusing and I really don't know how I feel or how to express what I'm feeling. ... View more

@Esperanza67 I've just been trying to sleep the whole day ahah. ... View more

The party was pretty good met new people, made friends. The only bad thing is that I didn't get much sleep aha. In the end "she" never came that I know of. Land of disappointed because that was a big reason why I wanted to go. I didn't know she was going when I was invited. ... View more

@Eden1717 I completely understand what you're saying. Didn't know you had to be 18 to be diagnosed with it. I've heard alot of therapists don't want to have a patient with BPD or something idk. I think I'm just going to keep on going and if in the future I need to see someone I will. I don't know how to describe it, like I don't want there to be something wrong with, I'm not trying to force a disorder onto myself but I feel that I'm not 100% good if you know what I mean. ... View more

@Tiny_leaf I will try but I have almost no idea what to say. That's if she will even want to talk to me. ... View more

@Tiny_leaf hopefully actually meeting "her" for the first time, having a proper conversation. I just don't want to fuck up like I've already somehow done, I don't even know what or if I've done something.  ... View more

@Tiny_leaf yeah, I know it's a stupid thing to worry about but I can't help but think about it. 😒 ... View more

@Tiny_leaf that's no good. How I'm feeling? Ngl I'm honestly starting to freak out about tomorrow. ... View more