Life's kinda looking up but its a rollercoaster omg

So you've read my previous post on what happened with my ex, and I wasnt really as down as i'd expected, as she didnt really show that much affection at all towards me. However, I dont know if you read my first post with Z and F? They used to be boyfriends but Z was incredibly abusive and toxic towards F but sadly F was too in love with Z to see it or to break up. We ended up distancing ourselves for about 3 or so months and it was quite sad, I was really close to F and kinda had feelings for him? Well recently F finally broke it off with Z and i reached out to him, expressing my sympathy and wanted to hear his side of the story because Z is a compulsive liar. We got to talking again and its been really really nice talking to him again and as we were already very close, we just kind of re-clicked. We got to talking about the past and as it turns out, F had a really big crush on me in the past and I reciprocated. The only reason he didnt confess his feelings for me is because Z confessed before he had time and felt pressured into the relationship. Well... F and I have sorta started something? We both agreed to take it slow as we are still both healing but agreed that we had an undeniable connection and mutual love for each other. Sorry guys, my life is so chaotic and i"m keeping everyone on their toes LMAOOOOO but F is so sweet and even after one day I'm already as in love with him as i was when we were close. He's joining my dance class (he's afab trans) and so that means we'll get to reconnect and see each other weekly which will be absolutely amazing.

Thank you so so much for the encouragement, sympathy and kind words on my last post, this is genuinely the best community i've been in and have never felt so safe. Stay funky ✌️