My Dreams
I was scrolling through my social media feed a while ago and saw some pictures of my school cricket final 6 years ago. 6 Years ago at this time my life was totally different then as it is today. I have different thoughts, different plans. I was a different person. I do not regret anything about how much I have changed since then but I miss batting in the 22 yards. I would give away my everything if I could play cricket my whole life. Recently because of some issues I have stopped playing cricket for while and I am not sure when I can start playing again. No one notices but it is killing me every moment every. Every second I am Thinking how and when can I get back to the 22 yards. I was able to play cricket back then , even recently before all my issues started I was able to play. But I feel like I did not value it, I used to get sad of not scoring big runs everyday. But now when I think about it I feel like whatever I was doing I was able go out there and bat but now I am ready here to give my all to just play doesn't matter what I score. Sounds funny Isn't it ?
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Hi @medoriyaa
This post is so bittersweet but heartwarming. I think it will definitely relate with a lot of people 🫶
Sometimes, it can be so confronting to look back on your journey and recall where you came from versus where you are now. Change can seem so inevitable - but it does not mean that we're outright abandoning things we used to really associate our identify with.
Sport is so special in that sense because we associate it with various experiences, challenges, wins, feelings, people and community. I admire your sense of reflection and ambition - I really encourage you to hone in on that enthusiasm and passion.
It could help to really absorb yourself into watching professional cricket. Like going to the matches, cheering with the other fans, being updated with the players and their journeys. That atmosphere, whether at the game or at home, can be really special.
Alternatively, I would recommend looking into more casual cricket games. Maybe a local university club or social sport? That way you can go about your day-to-day routine and have a hobby on the side.
I really relate to this post and I would love to hear any update from you!
Thanks @formulafrenzy yes you re right I was thinking about playing local cricket tournaments but never approached any team. But now I am gonna do that
Hi @medoriyaa
It seems like cricket is very important to you and you are struggling with not being able to play. I understand how you feel and how hard it is going from doing something, to not be able to because of health issues.
Like what @QuietFocus211 said, it is okay to be sad and grieve missing out on the sport, but this break doesn't mean it is the end. When i was younger i loved playing sport but unfortunately had to stop at 14 when i got diagnosed with RA. It was too painful to play but it was just as painful to be missing out on the sport. Thankfully, 8 years later i am in position that i can play basketball and football again. It is very hard to stop playing when you are so passionate but health is more important.
Something that helped me was that i kept reminding myself that time was going to pass no matter what, if i look after myself now and do what i can, i will be back out there playing sport again.
During those 8 years i found still trying to be involved within the sporting clubs to be really helpful and made me feel involved without stepping onto the field. Is this something you are interested in doing or may think will help?
All the best ✴️
@sunnygirl606 . Thanks for understanding. You waited 8 years to get back to sports again that must be really tough for you. I can't even imagine how strong you might be to bear it till 8 long years.
About involving with clubs , actually whenever I am seeing someone play it's hurting me even more that why am I haven't been able to go and play like them. That's why I am keeping more distance from the game.
Hey @medoriyaa!
I completely understand how painful it can be when you’re unable to do what you love, especially something that feels like such a core part of who you are. Cricket, even though I don’t know a lot about it, seems like more than just a sport for you; it’s something that gives you purpose and joy. It makes sense that being away from it feels like a huge loss.
It’s okay to feel this way, and it’s okay to grieve what you’re missing right now. But I really believe that this isn’t the end of your cricket journey. Even if you can’t play at the same level right now, maybe there are other ways to stay connected to the game—whether that’s casual matches with friends, coaching, or just practicing on your own when you can. Sometimes, life takes us on detours we don’t expect, but that doesn’t mean you won’t find your way back.
You clearly have so much love and passion for cricket, and that will always be a part of you, no matter what. I hope you’re able to return to it in some way soon, and in the meantime, be kind to yourself. You’re not alone in this. ❤️
@QuietFocus211 yes you are exactly right. this does not just feel like only a game to me. It gives me purpose and joy. It works like my escape whenever I feel very low. So yes I want to play doesn't matter where right now just want to play.
