can i ask what is happening that makes you have these thoughts and urges?
i would very much suggest speaking to someone you trust whether that be a teacher, parent, other family member and then speaking to your gp so that they can also help you as well
i second the webchats from headspace or kidshelpline. they are both really good and understanding.
Hey @gorgie, I edited your post as there was some security information from your email account. I am sorry that you aren't feeling listened to. It can make everything so much more difficult and can make us feel lonely. Have you got anyone to talk to about this at all? Have you reached out for help before? Here to listen 
Hey @gorgie, I hope you were able to get some help this afternoon and that you're feeling safer now We're always here to listen, as is the Suicide Callback Service, Lifeline, and Kids Helpline.
I've been in a similar headspace of feeling very hopeless and wanting to end my life...I promise that with the right help things can improve and you will feel joy and wellbeing again.
I have a question how can I get help without calling anyone cause I try but they don't listen to me
Hi @gorgie , thank you for coming onto this forum and sharing this with us - it's so important to speak up when you're having thoughts of suicide.
If you have already taken any action towards ending your life, or harmed yourself in anyway, call 000 immediately.
If you are safe now, please contact suicide call back 1300 659 467 on this number - do you think you can do that?
Look out for an email in your inbox as well.
You're not alone, you can get through this.
@gorgie I can hear that the helplines aren't helpful - have you tried using any of the digital version of these helpines? You can use these to chat online?
lifeline has an online chat here
and kidsline here .
Is that helpful at all?
how have the past few dyas been for you?
i have been abused yes but i wont say who by. is this something that is happening for you?
hi @gorgie, could you explain what you mean in your last post?
Who do you live with at the moment?
Are you experiencing any kind of abuse?
I meant that I have not seen my mum for four years cause of sexual abuse
