Self-talk
So I submitted my thesis today, which is great and I expected to feel relieved, and I am but I also feel really worried, like, what if I fail?
And I think I need to check in with myself and get myself back on track because my thoughts have been slipping a fair bit the last few days, to the point where when I was driving today, every thought would be followed by "you dumb this" or "you ugly that..."
I deactivated my Facebook today which is probably good for my mental health, but I did it for the wrong reasons. i.e. No one wants to hear what I have to say.
I was having a conversation with someone on Messenger (which they had initiated) and I asked them how their day was to continue the conversation. But then I started thinking that I'd forced them to talk to me by asking a question and making the conversation drag on, so I sent them a message apologising and telling them to ignore the question.
So if they were willing to be my friend before, I doubt they will be now.
Anyway, that probably made no sense, for which I apologise. I think I needed to express the mess in my head somehow... This, too, shall pass. 
Comments
hey @letitgo, congrats! I think at this point you definitely deserve a long, well-earned break and some space to just relax and let go. Are you feeling any better?
hey @letitgo, thank you for sharing. First of all, congratulations on finishing your thesis ! That's amazing!!
In regards, to your messenger part, I can say that I understand how you feel. I was talking to my 'friend' one night, similar situation to you, but now I get a sense that she hates me. ugh, i'm so annoying. (sorry, my story isn't very helpful - but I do get how you feel). We're always here if you need a chat
Thank you so much @Esperanza67 and @honky. I really appreciate your support!
Why do you think you'll fail? I don't think you'll fail, because you've said you seem relieved and great to have submitted it. Plus I think it's highly unlikely that your supervisor will let you submit your thesis if he/she knows you'll fail, as it would affect their reputation if you did.
As for the Messenger part, I'm pretty sure that they are still willing to be your friend, because you haven't said anything negative or mean towards them. I would anyway if this conversation happened between you and I instead 🙂
