Day 1 Vent
TW: Potential swearing and poorly structured.
So uhm Day 1 is approaching fast for some of us and only time will tell until things get better.
I suppose to fill in, I'm heading into Year 10 in Victoria this year after a very disappointing and rather underwhelming Year 9. It wasn't what I had hoped for, both in and out of the classroom, this shouldn't be a surprise because of COVID but it frustrates me because the best event (City Experience) got cancelled. Now I'm walking into the 2nd half of high school knowing that it won't be very exciting and not having much to look forward.
Going into Year 10 does not sound exciting, and there isn't much to actually look forward to (aside days off school). Year 10 has appeared to be so boring that I feel I've just been better off planning what I want to do in VCE and Uni (undergraduate courses at the moment). What' really has been grinding my gears is I've been struggling to find Work Experience placements. This month was going to be my time to explore many shopping centres to maximise my chances of receiving Work Experience placements but because of Omicron I haven't had the opportunity to do so.
Particularly with the new Omicron variants, its made me very anxious about going to school and external school events, particularly Swimming and Athletics Carnival. I've had recurring thoughts about skipping both events in fear of COVID and taking those days off to study. Year 10 gets very overwhelming with assessments, but unfortunately those events are still compulsory for us. It doesn't seem like the school has done much to manage our wellbeing these 2 past years, particularly during times that can definitely stress us out.
I'm also hoping we don't have to go through online learning, these past 2 years I've becoming very intolerant against background noise and my house has too much of that. Idk why but I get naturally anxious when I hear footsteps, yelling or doors opening, it makes me think that if this happened whilst doing/revising for a SAC that I'll be fucked. This thought only gets worse when I imagine it for an exam. I wear headphones and have my door closed because I can't stand background noise (particularly at night), not because I want to be asocial and selfish. I just don't feel I can achieve my best.
This post might not age well, but i can say for now that I just want to be able to accelerate 2 Unit 3/4 subjects yet become low profile throughout Year 10. Hopefully, I can get back in touch with a school counsellor and settle things through.
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Just catching up on the forums here- I'm so sorry you haven't had a good experience at school in Year 9 and that you feel really down about this coming year too. I can imagine school must be so difficult during COVID, and it must be hard to get motivated too.
I think the others gave good advice. For now, I'm really proud of you for thinking of seeing the school counselor, and proud of you for taking the time to plan ahead and try to get some experience. Getting experience can be quite tricky and I understand why it might be frustrating, but please know that it's completely normal for it to take some time. I'm sure you'll be able to find something that fits you and your goals in due time.
I hope you're feeling ok today ❤️
@yeah_it_tahtperson I'm so sorry you had such a disappointing year 9 experience and that you're worried you don't have much to look forward to in year 10 as well.
I wish there was something more useful I could say, but COVID honestly sucks.
It's such a crappy situation all around and I think most people have been impacted in some way - it's completely understandable that you feel the way you do. 💛
Is there anything that has helped over the past two years? Anything good that's happened or helpful ways of managing things in a COVID world that you might be able to draw on this year? Just in case it's helpful, we have some articles on our website about coping during COVID in case you'd like to have a read.
It's really positive that you're thinking of getting in touch with a school counsellor - do you think they might be able to help you access any supports (eg. with assignments, finding work experience placements, or things like school carnivals, etc)?
I noticed you mentioned there being a lot of noise and some yelling at home, and I was wondering if everything is okay there? Is your family supportive of creating a quiet environment or helping in other ways when you need it?
I'm crossing my fingers for you that things go more smoothly than expected this year - I really hope you get to have the year 10 experience you're hoping for.
Hi,
I'd say its possible that my new counsellor could help me out with supports once I reach out.
I think everything is OK at my home, sometimes the noise is stuff like lawn mowing or loud phone calls but it still gets frustrating. Its safe to say that I still feel secure at home. I'll check out the articles about COVID when I get the chance.
Hey @yeah_it_tahtperson I'm sorry to hear about your experiences so far. It sounds like things have been tough for you. It's really great that you feel safe at home and that you think that the counsellor can help you with some supports once you reach out to them. Hopefully you find the articles to be a helpful read when you get a chance to read through them 😊
I can understand how noises at home can be frustrating, especially when we need to listen. I hope that you have found the headphones to be useful with cancelling out some of the noises!
