Hey @Tiny_leaf , I'm sorry to hear that you're not doing so great today 😞
What are you up to today, can you schedule in a bit of self-care/ rest/ nap time?
How are your fishies going? I'll go over to the chat thread now to look at the pictures 🙂
@Janine-RO they're going pretty well, and I've added some bottom dwelling fish to clean up the gravel.
The rasboras (the orange ones) are doing okay, but there's only seven and they're starting to look a bit lonely. On Thursday I'll be getting five more to complete their school, which I think they'll like.
That sounds so exciting, I love how you can pretty much create your own mini-world when you have fish! Keep us updated, I love pet photos 🙂 I also find watching fish swim around really therapeutic, are you enjoying having your own fish at home?
I'm so tired. I'm really thirsty but I don't have the energy to get up. It doesn't feel like my legs will take my weight anyway rn.
I don't want to spend hours just lying here feeling like shit. 
I have an OT appointment today. I don't want to do it. I'm tired.
Hi @Tiny_leaf,
I am just catching up on posts from last night, and I can see that you were having a rough night 
How did you go overnight?
Getting up and moving can be really hard when feeling tired. I can understand the thought of going to the OT is really hard right now. What time is your appointment?
We will be around to check in today if you need someone to talk to, or some distraction
@Jess1-RO not great honestly.
And I don't know... I'm meant to practice taking the bus but rn I don't even want to go outside.
I'm so sorry to hear that @Tiny_leaf Do you have another option to the bus today, given how hard it is feeling to get to the OT appointment?
@Jess1-RO the OT is coming to my house so we can take the bus together, so that I can practice taking the bus.
On another note I'm trying to see if I can keep a fiddler crab as a pet.
It seems to be a thing in America but idk if it's even allowed here.
No I don't think it's possible
I mean my parents probably wouldn't let me anyway, but still.
Sorry I haven’t been on your thread lately.. how are you feeling about your appointment?
You’ll be okay, remember to breathe
@Bananatime04 it went okay.
Atm I'm submitting a thing to the Royal Commission. I'm really nervous but I need to do something about how hospitals/ health services have treated me and this seems the most doable.
I just want to express my complete hatred for my brother.
Just... fuck.
I also really relate to what you said about the doctors doing tests which can feel so discouraging at times. You took the words right out of my head better than I could!Sorry to hear that the people in your life are not supportive @Tiny_leaf. Is there anything that usually helps with the pain and soreness? From what you have mentioned, I think you have been doing well with your eating too. Remember that it is all progress, so keep at it, it can be such a challenging journey
@Tiny_leaf Yes I have had that issue a lot of my issues have and still are being ignored personally I just decided to keep pushing myself to function somewhat anyway because I can’t afford not to. It is not sustainable at all and is exhausting and painful but if I am still here I literally have no other choice. I hope you find a way to manage or even better a way to get rid of the problems but keep trying to advocate for yourself eventually someone must listen.
@Eden1717 yeah...
For me though the doctors don't even try to investigate, even if the problem is stopping me from living my life.
My parents don't really listen either
@Bananatime04 I'm glad you like them!
And yeah, but nothing was wrong, I just happened to be awake for some reason.
I'm just feeling a bit tired and sore though.. how about you?
@Tiny_leaf It really is hard with medical stuff because drs don’t want to do more tests than is necessary but that often means it leaves the person who isn’t feeling great super anxious not knowing for sure what is wrong or that they can be sure that nothing is wrong. But then there is also the side that sometimes drs don’t actually know what is wrong and that medicine isn’t advanced enough to deal with everything so sometimes even with all the tests they still don’t know. Either way it can be really hurtful to express that you are in pain or not feeling right/ok and be ignored and not taken seriously.
How are you going today? I noticed you posted at 6:20am this morning.. that’s like 3:20am your time isn’t it? 😞 I’m sorry. Were you able to get some sleep after that?
