TW Not doing so great

I feel really dizzy and shaky 😣

I've been feeling kinda off for the past while and I don't know if this is related but I've been feeling off all day.

I had to stop working on an art thing earlier because my hands started shaking too much and I nearly collapsed in class today even though we weren't doing anything physically difficult.

Idk what to do

@xXLexi_Lou122Xx a (really mild because I'm a wimp) curry, plus bubble tea.

Thank you @WheresMySquishy and @xXLexi_Lou122Xx 

And also thanks @Bananatime04, I was feeling bad but that made me smile.

I'm safe, and I followed my safety plan and called dad. We ended up going out for dinner, and the noise and movement at the restaurant seems to have stimulated my brain enough for it to stop complaining.

Hopefully your dad comes home soon.
I found this Reddit thread about boredom-busting websites the other day and I've been trying out a lot of the websites if you need some more suggestions. 🙂
I was able to rediscover a really old game I used to play as a kid through it.

@WheresMySquishy he's not home yet 

Unless that was him literally just closing the car door...

I've been playing heaps of browser games, I'm starting to run out of them...

@Tiny_leaf  I hope your dad was able to make you feel safe.
How are you feeling now?

I agree that the NDIS needs a lot of work, sadly. 😞

Is there anything that can occupy your attention for a little while? Sometimes, I play random io or browser games just to pass some time.

I had to call dad home from work. I'm literally so bored that I'm suicidal.

But I feel really guilty for stopping him from being at work but I was getting a bit too close to hurting myself...

I can't deal with this I can't keep spending months alone at home 90% of the time.

I can only nap so much I swear I'm spending like 12 hours asleep each day just to pass time.

I hate the NDIS for their lack of funding if they just did their damn job I could have support workers for more hours.

The isolation is getting to me and I hate irl human interaction. It feels like my brain is screaming.

I am very close to a complete breakdown.

I want to scream or break something or go somewhere.

I need something to happen.

Thanks @xXLexi_Lou122Xx 

@Janine-RO I don't really know.. oh, though I did make this: https://www.biggerbolderbaking.com/celebration-mug-cake/. With extra sprinkles, of course. 

 @Tiny_leaf that sounds so incredibly frustrating, I'm so sorry to hear that you got left in the lurch like that and felt let down by your parents. It's a really awful feeling. 

I hope the forums can provide a bit of distraction if you need it tonight - do you have anything else that you feel like doing to distract yourself/ have a bit of self care? 

No need to apologise @xXLexi_Lou122Xx, you've gotta do stuff like that.

Urrgh I'm so bored and restless I hate this!

I've got an entire fucking day to waste. 

@xXLexi_Lou122Xx I hope things go okay for you.

@xXLexi_Lou122Xx you don't have to stay up, I don't think either of us wants you to fain!

@xXLexi_Lou122Xx I've texted him but he hasn't responded.

I feel terrible, I just want to cry.